All of the stars were lined up for the purchase..most especially the “North star” which was my husband turning 50… Yup, it was time to buy a convertible. The more we looked, the more excited we became until we finally settled on a silver and black, used BMW-Z4-3.0 Si. Now let me just say, we are the most boring, conservative, no frills, no nonsense couple you will ever find, so the idea of getting a sports car was truly outside of our normal thinking pattern. Hey, sometimes you just gotta go for it..right?
Fast forward two years and I’m standing in a rainstorm in a parking lot watching my husband’s friend count $17,000 in cash handed over by a sketchy looking dude from Miami who met us there to finally take that little dream-mobile off our hands. (My hubby was out of town for that creepy transaction… of course!)
Which brings me to the moral of the story: Buying that little car was like buying a pair of jeans that are way too tight because you are convinced you’ll lose 25 pounds. We bought the Z4 assuming our lifestyle would change to fit it- but it didn’t. My husband is the kind of guy who will stop and grab groceries or a pizza or a fifty pack of Costco toilet paper on the way home, but with this car- he couldn’t. He also likes to keep his tennis gear, work folders, golf bag, hard hat and gym duffel with him, but with this car he couldn’t. I could go on, but you get the idea. There was nothing at all wrong with the car- it just wasn’t for him- or for us. It didn’t fit our reality.
How many people woke up January 1st with an awesome list of New Year’s resolutions that don’t fit their reality?
Year after year so many of us have the tendency to imagine ourselves conforming to a set of lifestyle goals that simply do not match who we know we are. The consequences are always the same- frustration that ultimately leads to some version of a “dark, rainy parking lot”.. usually in front of an all you can eat buffet.
My new year’s goal this year is to drive the “car” I already have to the best of its ability. You see the truth is, I know I can do better with this vehicle. I can take better care of it so it lasts longer. I can watch what grade of fuel I put into it. I can stop doing things that wear it out like slamming on the brakes when I overreact to stuff that comes at me or taking life’s twists and turns too aggressively. I can polish it up a bit, clean all the crap out of the back seat, make room for new friends and let it take me to places I haven’t been..yes, the car I have right now can do all this and more!
I don’t need to imagine myself in a new, snazzy set of wheels; the ones I have now are perfectly fine. I don’t want to have to break in, or be broken by, something strange and new and possibly ill-fitting like our Z4.
Hey-I’m simply not a little sports car ..and at this point I never will be. I’m probably more like an SUV of some kind (with heated seats for my sciatica.) I’ve got a few miles on my engine no doubt, but all in all I’m in good shape.
My New Year’s resolution? Love, drive, be grateful for and take better care of what I’ve got right here- right now-right in my “driveway.”
Vroom-Vroom y’all .. and Happy New Year!!